DO YOU GET THE FEELING

I get the feeling you are Emiliano pissed all day, you do nothing more than write with some fury seeming to hate everything around you, judges, politicians, unemployment, the crisis, the lack of hope, start have a boring broken record.
Sure at this rate you will lose readers who feel depressed by the amount of bad news and for your continuous anger.

You should tell us more fun things, anecdotes, what do you do, what makes Gatufo, how you feel you look good in the world around you in order to optimism and hope it is what we need to transmit when you write.

You're right for once, whoever you are, unnamed interviewer, storytelling, or curious and heavy that explores our lives and propagates the Web. Are you not ashamed to be so nosy?. Having our little secrets and you can always taking off from inside?.

No, I'm not ashamed, it is my mission to dig inside people. Like I do with you doing with others.
There are many like me who are dedicated just to that, to dig, to help the emotions to surface and people like you Emiliano, Cuca or other link to download the pack and I release them from your hidden feelings.
psychiatrists we network, we have no name, only awareness and imperceptible entity for most people.
restless  you are and so worry as we have to meet and make a therapeutic work with you and with other like you my friend.

Interestingly, no idea you were at heart a good person and not a nosy jerk, as you usually look like.

Emiliano Now it's your turn, you have to tell us something that interests us about yourself, which I think is going to be difficult.

Think about it, my life is not fun or varied precisely and I doubt that matters to anyone, but make an effort following your advice.

To begin and not well precisely, I have a terrible flu for about ten days, I have been coughing so much pain because of back pain that keeps me awake at night.
If I'm lying is like needles pricking me in the lower back while I cough, all I can not sleep in my bed. I have attached to a easy chair is in the room and that's my bedroom for seven days or more.
Instead of being next to Cuca the Gatufo´s cat is on my side all night.  
The poor cat is very puzzled when I feel cough, if he runs over and then sits back down on my legs or attached to my belly. 

Gatufo is overnight at me without abandon or even a moment, and then say Cats are selfish, this at least looks like it hit me when I was born and it does not come off for a moment.  The most loving thing in the world is my Gatufo.

About me want to tell you, I'm a retired man, usually indoors for days. There is nothing outside, on the street I'm interested too, so I can go weeks without leaving home.
 Gatufo is always by my side or up on my legs.



What I could say to you dear friend, I am a retired now, my work now is to handle all my tasks at home previously done by Cuca, she being sick it is my turn now.

Before that I was working in a Bank, here in Madrid, where I was born and I have lived since them.
Life in Madrid is very hard for anyone who has to earn a wage, blessed if you work, it is almost a privilege to work in this country.  
Usually it takes you an hour or more to get to the job every morning, so people living in a big city like this have to get up very early.
Distances are huge, traffic is hell, and the subway is crowded.
When I worked in the center of the capital got up at half past six to get to the office at eight o'clock.

Live within the city, with metro and bus coming and the office was in the middle of Madrid, Retiro park attached to. However I was almost an hour to get if I wanted to be five or ten minutes before eight.

I used to come early in the office, an empty office was waiting for me, aired by opening all windows and for a while I sank into the peace of starting a day quietly without anyone around me, slowly companions were arriving and I was sitting in my room with all the files on the table.
The first hours were the best, arrived with great enthusiasm because I had raised two or more hours .

I enjoyed working the last I had in the bank, foreign trade had incidents. Import and export credits, documentary remittances, guarantees, warranties, document review guaranteeing delivery of the goods.

Review of documents coming from other foreign banks, finally a job that I liked and that practically had to do all mornings writing and reading in English.

Good times for work and companionship, good times are gone now. Everything is competition inside the works, computer work, and infighting little creative to survive in the gigs.
A disgusted by what I see when I go to a bank or other sites and chat with employees.

Doing this work interesting, specialized in need to have a good knowledge foreign trade bank gave me the opportunity to prejubilarme with 52 years and certainly take the opportunity.

A waste without specialized workers at an age where they can go a long way and make a good work.

It was not my problem, the salary is charged at home without glue a stick to water, make ends meet and salary paid without going a single day in the office .
Freedom to read, walk, listen to music and learn computer. I wanted to write, ha ha, good. Write?, And that on that?. Easy to say, write a book, but as'. To whom would interest my wanderings through life and other issues I lacked imagination.

By now more than enough, I've told a lot of things I guess interest to very few friends of the blog.

Another day a little more.

Thanks, greetings.

the gatufo

RESTRICTIONS IN THE WEB

 

The closures of web pages resemble the other Prohibition where alcohol has been replaced in our lives for multimedia content.

It comes to the same, old people drank something or much to forget their sorrows or her own life, now we drink multimedia, series, movies, music, for dive into another world of fiction and general 

often forget ours.

(Dry law was enacted in the U.S. in 1919 and was derrogada in 1933 confirming his dismissal with the XXI amendment in the constitution of that country.

In that Prohibition was banned, manufacturing, transportation and consumption beverages with alcohol content.

The law gave rise to the resurgence and rise of organized crime trafficked in forbidden beverages.) 

And yes, this restriction of pages or Web sites could be  Prohibition other kind of modern, restricted 

our new drug or hobby. 

My thought is that if it can be something like that as that prohibition, this closure and will continue to generate a series of unpredictable and unwanted waves whose dimension or consequences no aware and less who proceeded to mow the grass burning around the bush and not letting anything grow.

Justifying devastate all who want to stop "piracy" ..... and assume that everything is piracy and so

encroaching upon the rights and freedoms of some to protect others from pillaging called computer.

The "end should never justify the means", and when the end NO is to protect the rights of author" (apparent end to justify these closures) but the rights of the multinationals that sell fun, culture or what they want to sell as intellectual work that are managed by them with millions of 

dollars or euros of income for those "multinational of culture "that in most cases there shared with the authors, as already charged at the time for concerts, plays, films or any other deed produced culture time and spent most of times.

We assume that:

- The author is not only who receives money for his work.

I can be author of this blog for example, and I ask

nothing of my work.

This free, open, free of charge to anyone who wishes

read to.

- Do not give me that protect the "copyright"

because if they close pages where authors that "no charge"

can publish their works, writings, songs, jobs,

etc. Vds are trampling on the rights of these authors

who do not work or are bothered by the "profit", but

wish to share or disclose your ideas with the more

followers better, or your music, videos or books.

Restrict the freedom to publish ideas, songs, books

free that would otherwise be very difficult to make

or share.

- There are authors who will never receive any 

financial compensation for their works.

They are made too long for it and

if not for the Web had not been re-discovered

again for new generations of moviegoers or

lovers of music or literature.

Many of the best films were produced in 

forty or fifty, and was quite forgotten

and unattainable for most.

Not to mention books and music released or anyone

copyright charge, solely and exclusively those

global trade with it.

- Of those authors, dead, forgotten many of them,

multi just wants benefits and more benefits,

restricting the right or the Internet culture

they can know their work "free", if free as

should be freed from these so-called "rights"

that since no one really takes.

- Fallacy after fallacy talking about rights of all, when 

are rights of the few and very few business and 

powerful.

And so on point after point .... arguing against these measures, or trying to reason other 

rights are violated today but my understand not warrant sweep away all looking for a 

measuring purpose without the means.

.............

Thinking about the undesirable effects generated I can argue the restriction that:

The traffic generated Prohibition "illegal" drinks alcohol content. Surgiron mafias, gangs, and 

dealers everywhere to deliver what people demanded as "right" severed.

This pruning absolute Web will generate traffic, multimedia content to hitherto unknown levels.

Suppose I have several disks full of "multimedia" that already banned his descent, as I have no doubt that it is a mine to market  for years if they wish to exploit in my own profit.

At what level?.

So allow me to level my wits, my knowledge or the content they already possess or can acquire.

And it will, I think if will happen, as did trafficking of wine, beer or spirits whose consumption is prohibited indiscriminately.

Other side effects may be .......

To mails, or visit the wiki or newspaper need not ADSL, or latest generation PC Q1 DD

And s hard drives or other gadgets?

For what, to save photos? or PDFs, letters, documents?.

And Tv sets., Leeds last generation? Tv .... programs. and no one to resist, to many the device screen serves content ....

 Continue my tv apparatus used. for years, until no more stamina.

Phones ult.gener,? that allow me to watch videos, to download, browse, have internet, etc .... and pay big bucks not very good for ya? because it is not .... because if I have to go to the store to buy a CD., or DVD, or pay a super movie ticket, I will not to have for all of those gadgets ...

New PC or Mac bye, bye new laptop, goodbye ADSL, goodbye multimedia hard drives, or content, goodbye, Bye, bye ..... free or free culture.

I'll line up to buy books at 24 euros, or 18 euros or CD concert videos ....... 20 euros will be lining the creators, or DVD to not fill few euros ..... and mini floor, if at I have with boxes, CDs and books ....

More unemployment to cease part or computer industries telephony, or manufacturers dd, tv., and other gadgets.

It´s clear that some side effects have happened, but it doesn´t matter

as now the world has another more serious problems.

gagufo

WHO ARE BETTER

Years ago  I was reading in the paper that the increase of Taxes (IVA) here in Spain affects to our best friends who humans may have at home, their pets.
The prices of veterinaries have increase so much that a lot of persons, old people mostly, can´t carry their pets to these professionals but also to buy the medicines for the animals have encreased a lot.

But not only veterinaries or medicines for the pets have increased, also pets food now it is now very expensive.

Too much expensive for people that have not enough even to buy food for themselves and retired people use to have pets and their money has decrease absolutely.

Last year more than 100.000 dogs have been taken off from their houses only in Spain and it is for sure that even more are going to be abandonee, what is evidently a tragedy for the pets and for their owners.

I can´t imagine doing that with Gatufo, I prefer to be hungry before doing such a thing, of course.

Also it is said that euthanasy of the pets has encrease just a lot, the same with poor cats (nearly 30.000), just because for some more decent people it is imposible to mantaing their pets and they prefer that the poor animal doesn´t suffer being abandoned.

For retired old people it is good to have a nice pet at their home, they feel better taken care of their friend and frequently it is the only reason to go out from home to walk.
Healthy and good not to be so alone in doors. Going out from home is good for all these old people that frequently I could see if I go to the park or going for a walk near home.

I am really concern about these news that affects me just a lot.

Cats don´t need to walk but they need a lot o care, just playing with them is good and they give us their love againts so little from our part.
That is just what Gatufo needs from me and the cat gives me all his love and nice company.
This misery situation that we are going through has these kind of situations and it is really too sad.
Old or poor families can´t have their pets at home because prices have encrease so much or their pesonal situation has gone from bad to worst.
So bad for the animals, but even worst for us that can´t have our best friends at home because it is absolutely imposible now.

Thanks God it is not my situation for the moment, and I prefer to avoid all kind of things before taken off muy dear Gatufo out home.
This will be the last, unthinkable by all means. He gives me so much love that now I can not understand our life without our dear cat.
He has changed our life for good, that is sure.

I think it is another great mistake of this goverment, just to encrease the price of this little subjects that make our life better.

This goverment, now is there not any, but it did so when it forget all the promises they made about not encreasing prices, IVA, and so forth. They are transpasing the red line month after month, and even not encreasing the pension of pensioners has been their great mistake. I could be just the drop that fills the glass and sure we are going to see it next elections.

They say, the goverment, that the instructions come from Brussels. the European Bank, the
rich countries from Europe that give us the loans and so forth.

May be we could dispense the Government of ruling our country, the same with Greek, Italy, Ireland or Portugal and doing what Brussels or the European Bank order all of our poor countries.
Doing this way we could save a lot of money that is being paid to our politicians, mayors, parliamentarians, community Presidents, senators, and plugged people.

Just doing what Brussels said, Germany or other rich countries from the North of Europe said it should be sufficient to save our money not encreasing life in the way it is happening now.

Evidently who gives the money gives the orders, and now it is not our time.

But what come be done?. What about our pets? old people? un-employers?.
I do think it is a REAL SHAME for us already but time is changing and being so proud about our past gives us really no any loans to survive.

TILL WHEN?
No body knows, but I am really piss off with all of this events.

"el gatufo"

BEING OUT

Something similar to be out of this world, nearly to be in coma, it is the experience I am afraid of being now.
Since June when Cuca has been moved out of home I think that could be one of the worst period of life I have lived as far as could remember.

Nothing coudl be of my concern or interest, despite my wealthy situation was not so bad as the situation of millions out of my own world.

Thousands and thousands of them have lost their work, their houses, their hopes and even some of them their life.
I didn´t want even to know about what was happening outdoors, what for?. It was always de same, bad news, even worst to someone like me who was going through a bad period of his own life.

At the end, just to not let dying this "Gatufo Blog" I have to make an effort and have taken my writing style once more time, and I´ll continue as long as I could.
But the problem for me it is: what to write about? sad news once and again?. No, to much bad news reading the paper or listening to the TV. or Radio.
It was as a challenge to write about different topics, something to make us smile, poems, amusing events, or curiosities of history. 
Human history that some time a bit change or a humans un trascendent domestic decision diverts the course of history and the lives of millions of people.

By the way, I admire the loyalty of my cat Gatufo as once he gives us his loyalty or love it is always kind, affective, never angry or spiteful with us.
Gatufo wanted alwyas to play with me despite I was out, without any will to play with him.

Despite that Gatufo was kind, affective and wanted always to be on my lap.
Yes, I look at him and I could see he is a happy creature day after day, without asking anything about his world or never thinking about his future.
I would like to change for him several times, and even more along this past last year that I was feeling myself so bad, so depressive for such a long time.
 
Today that I am writing this lines all is different inside my mind. It seems depression is out from me....Thanks God, and I am in good disposition to write about funny things not only the sad events are happening now in the world, in France, in Siria, in Turkey, and so forth.
 
I need to write about odd news, about poesy, politician jokes, and from time to time about quotidian's problems here in this so poor country and other places.

Yes, I know people are suffering just a lot.....as ever every where round the world. Nothing new as humans are predators to human beinns always. That´s the sad rule through history.
Now things are going really too bad for people here, in Europe or other places, just after we all think we were rich and have enough money to spend.

The State of good living is over, once again, after several persons started to think this state of real good living was for long, or even for ever.

I need to look for some funny news, interesting topics and so forth to make this gatufo blog more amusing for you and for me.

Thanks a lot and the best for this year that is in fact begining.

Greetings, 

 

el gatufo 

ARE THERE WORDS TO SAY?

Nothing to say or to think.....

It is just a pity but it is the truth, what can I talk about?. My head is blocked and being so bad I am absolutely fed up with so much talking about the euro. loans, public deficit, prime risk, and what is even worst european´s politicians who do nothing or past away from the problems of the European´s south countries and now other problems, inmigrants, people who die crossing the sea, war, more wars....and so forth.

Politicians from the European North countries are against any help to Greek, Spain, Portugal or Italy.
Even they are against receiving people who comes with fear because their countries are in WAR.

These countries from the North of Europe make a lot of electronic machines, gadgets or high technology but what about food?.
What about fruits, vegetables, jamon, wine, good oil and so fort?.

Evidently they can´t eat a celular as a Nokia, a car as Mercedes or a high design furniture as human beings need food, to be feed.

South Europeans countries as Italy, Greek, Spain or Portugal do have a lot of food to feed  their people and to export north countries that have so bad wether, but also need money to buy the high technology products from the North or to pay the social necessities of the citizens.

My country, Spain, has all these kind of good food that North Europeans like so much.
So please, don´t be so proud about your money....if you don´t sell to us you are not going to be feed with nice oranges, strawberries, olive oil, and all kind of fruits or vegetables out of time.

B.C.E., Brussels, don´t be so much serious about strict rules, don´t have your hands so closed to let currency fluency.
We need loans, of course, but you need to sell your productions and also to recover your loans to Mediterraneas countries. 

Here in my country there is a saying that says:

"If your debt is a thousand you have a problem but if your debt it is of some thousand millions it is just the problem of the other"....Be careful about this subject.

So if countries like Greek, Spain or Portugal decides to go out from the euro.........not conceivable by now......but United Kingdom had do that, just incredible THE BREXIT, the problem should be a global one not only a problem for us.

Be alert countries like Finland, Denmark, Netherland or Germany as the fall should be general.... to what countries are you going to sell your technology? how are you going to recover your loans?. Think about it, please, and don´t be so slow in taking resolutions, not be so strict and not impose so much hard rules to be accomplished by us.  

 With your actitude you are making too much suffering to our south people.

Have also in mind that countries from south Europe are the cradle of modern culture as law, theatre, art, numbers, calendar, religion, medicine, mathematics and so forth.
The best ancient thinkers are from Greek, Philosophy, Mathematics, Astronomie....
Think about the seven Athem´s wise men: Tales de Mileto, Bias de Priene, Solom of Athens, Quilon of the Cedemonia (Esparta), Periandro de Corinto, Cleobulo de Lindos, and Pitaco of Mitileno.
Also think in Averroes, (Cordoba), Avicena (Cordoba), Seneca, Adriano, Trajano, all  of them were born in Spain.
Sócrates, Platón, and Aristóteles. Arquimides, Pitagoras,  from Greek.
Leonardo da Vinci, Rafael, Gioto, Vivaldi, ...Leonardo di Medici, Italian Renaissance, The Roman Law....the list could be endless.
The Western culture comes from these ancient civilizations, do not forget that.

It is sure that if Greek goes out from euro, followed by Spain, Portugal, Ireland and Italy, .......the world crack would be unthinkable.
Think and please stop your threats and your impositions that are unenforceable for us the poor people of south.

Our countries have millenniums of culture to be afraid now, just do another thing instead and it will be sure that Europe could be good for every all people and all the countries of Europe, the same from the south and for the north.

It is enough, people are killing themselves all ovet the south due for the hard circunstances of these years, and all next Orient are in war.
Hundred of thousand people are in a hurry going out from their home, coming here as their last solution.
What is going to hapen with so many persons?
And the other we have here in Spain that can´t pay their house mortages because they have lost their works, their hopes, their self-steem and at the end some are killing themselves too.

Do you know about that or you don´t know anything about what is happening along the last two or three years?.
Your and our politicians are so bad as to do nothing to find a good solution to these problems.
Well here, in my country Spain it is a disaster what is happening with these so bad called lideres.

This is a world´s crisis that could affect to every body here, there, and everywhre it could longs for too many years.
¿or not, who knows?. It seems that but hopes is the last feeling to lost.

My best to all of us.

gatufo

WHAT ABOUT FRIENDS?

  (IBIZA´S PHOTOS taken by emiliano)

Friendship? yes that is a difficult subject to write about, indeed, that is.
To me is one of the most important experiences a person may have, but not all people thinks the same, of course, for some the best subject to have is love, money, be succesfull in your work or in your life, health of course, but even sex or have a lot of everything.

Other are more simple persons that need nearly nothing to be happy, no friends, no money, no things at all, only a nice quiete life it is enough for them.
Recently I have known a person like this, a new friend from Italy, that scarcely needs their house, their work, and some cats....and what is the best...he is a happy man that need nothing to live as his own work and silence space.
Congratulation dear......if your read this you know I am appointing to you.

More or less my dear Cuca is so. She now needs really nothing to be just a bit happy.
Being without posibilities of going out from home, to a theatre, a trip, for shopping, and so forth....she is happy with her life, a P.C., time to write, to see power points, a movie, to care her cat gatufo, and to care her husband, me.

I am just a Little different, odd?, may be but all my life I have needed friends.
To me friendship has been one of my priorities in life.
I have some friends since more than fourty years, and we see ach other with pleasure despite every one of us have their life, their problems, and it is not necessary to see us every day or frequently.

Friendship is it a difficult subject to talk to?

Well I do think so, every one understand this matter in a different way.
To meit  is clear, one of the best things a man/woman could have it is only to have at least ONE real friend.....some times it is enough.
At least it is what my dea Cuca said to me.

Fortunately for me I have more than......? two?   it could be.

My first, of course, it is my dear Cuca-friend-lover-mother of my daughters-wife and now sharing our life together, being happy with Little things.
She is indoors along moths, without going out home, she has multiple esclerosis, but I think she is happy with her life, having me close near to her it is the most treasure thing she could wish....well I think so.
Another quite good friends are three woman, and two man.....that I could see frequently, despite, as I said before, have their own life.

Finally I have one of my best ...far away....thousand of kilometers from here, Madrid, my house. but to me is absolutely important to have him like one of the best.
It is a pity we can´t see each other, different life, task, age, sittuation and so forth.
But he is one of the best friends I ever had.., life is so strange.
Who knows what is happening in future?.
------
Other people I have met along my life reminds in my mind absolutely as incredible good friends also. 
An English woman, a Greek woman, their husbands. and so forth.
Even when I was working I do have good friends at work, but that was in my other life several years ago.

Recently I thought I had a new friend, a young woman, who lives close near  home.
I thought she was a friend of us, mine and my dear Cuca, it was a great mistake by my part.
After some time of be mistaken, and along the last, I could see that friendship for her means really nothing...........so it is possible that for her a successfully life or work it is the only thing she prefers, and that is over every other things.

Why I could say that?.
It has been quite easy for me........there was not any kind of frienship in our relation as I could see last year.
For her their work, a good interesting work, was first of all and it was so evidently to me and to my wife that what first seems like a favour she was doing giving me a new expensive, very expensive, treatment for a disease I had for long nearly cost me the life.
Even this wasn´t the worst, as I have to stop it because it was too hard of being supporting, in all my life i have felt myself so bad, I was feeling close to die, and doing that it was my big mistake for proud herself.

After that I didn´t understand her reaction, not any interest about my healthy state, not much more visits, silence, and so forth.
Evidently, I was not good informed about what kind of treatment I was going to have but she, knowing our kind of life she could consider if this treatment was good or it wasn´t  and also could be first of all a friend, it was my big mistake, just considering her like a friend, not a doctor.

Evidently, not always we could choose or know previously how kind of friend a person could be of us.
What is the most important thing for this new person is in his/her life.
Evidently for her, the new supposed friend, first was her profession.

Even worst now,  one of my first friends it  is also very bad because a new disease has appeared in her life life and now I am very worried and sad about her health condition. 
Be strong dear friend I hope you´ll be out from the hospital very soon, and could be together remembering the year you have been so bad.

My best wishes to all of you. Have a good friend it could be the best for us, with only a good one could be enough.....as a wise woman close to me told me so frequently.

Thanks Cuca.

el gatufo.

this is also my friend, gatufo, always with me at my side
for the good and for the bad.........

JUST ANOTHER DAY

Talking about our world, our Spanish world what can I say now?.
It is easy, more soon that later we will be again fighting against adversity, that is for sure.
Nothing good is coming for the year 2016 or even the 2017.
The wealthy countries of Europe are going to be poor once more.
The south is being left to their own luck, as a ship that is going deep to the sea, and north European ´s politics are looking to another side, not listening the shouts of help, help, of millions from the south.

Why? Who knows.
The building buble, the banks, the politicians, we, the people spending too much money than money that we could afford?. It could be just a Little of all, we thought the time of being not so rich were over but reality is coming faster every day.
Here, in my country politicians said continously that it is necessary to follow in the "State of good being"...."El estado del bien estar"  but what is that?.
What is good being?. To have money to spend, to much money than we have? the subject than we have only rights but not any obligations? The rule of the less effort? Just that everything were for free?.


It seems  to me that all these last years we have been living up our real situation. Listening so many lies we thought we were rich and spent too much euros that the amount we have.
But now we have to pay them.
Ir is impossible such amount, and we could pay only the interest of the loans, what to do, just to ask for more loans to pay the interest....and so on, year after year.....till when?.
Who knows, the debts are increasing and the saving decrease too much faster.

This past years of 2012 - 2015 have been so bad, but I think the year we are living now it could be even worst till the point no body knows, we have not any Goberment, we know nothing about future, the only news thar are coming from Europe or the world are really tragics and very painfully.

I could not understand how so many young people have to be off from here, it is happening now in Spain the same situation than in South America some years before?.

More than 45 per cent of young people have not work, that is impossible of support for a country where are so many retired persons.

They need to go out from here, year after year, the same that I would do if I could be in the same situation.
But mine now it is completely different, not grandsons, or granddaughters, so the future of my
family stop with my daughters..., and fortunately till the momment they could work.
Well, it is too much for today, I am going to bed and I prefer not to think in future.

Tomorrow will be another day to live, and that is enough for the moment.....just to be alive and going on despite everything looks not so 
well.


Greetings,

Ibiza´s  South

 


el gatufo

¿QUIEN SOY YO?

(fotos de IBIZA tomada por emiliano)

SUFRIMIENTO

Me pides no sufrir con tu dolor de hoy, pues incremento tu
angustia cuando en mi la ves.

Alegría tendré aunque yo no la sienta pues se bien mi amor
que aligerar yo puedo.

La pena profunda que embarga tu ser, o el dolor constante
que siento en tu mirada.

 TEMOR

Dime que no estoy solo pues tengo miedo.
Dime que nunca lo estaré pues de mi no te irás.
Dime que dormirás a mi lado y descansaré.
Dime que tu me amas y seré feliz.

 Soledad

Cuando voy o vengo acompañado de mi ser estoy
nunca solo me encuentro.
No, yo no me fui presentado ni tampoco me elegí
de repente encontré el ser que soy.
En el que sin querer me he convertido tras largos
años conviviendo conmigo.

¿Quien soy yo?. ¿Quién es ese que siento?, quisiera
saberlo pues con gusto o sin el  siempre viviendo
con mi ser estoy.
Donde quiera que vaya sin elegirme como amigo
allá estará el. ¿Quién es? ¿A quien siento? ¿Alguna
vez lo sabré?.

Soy yo mismo y no me conozco, ni tan siquiera se
si me plazco. ¿Disfruto de mi compañía o no me
aguanto?.
El ser que soy en constante cambio, confuso a veces
me desconcierta tanto que....cuando el equilibrio con
migo hallo, si , entonces al fin descanso.

 Cuando voy o vengo acompañado de mi ser estoy
nunca solo me encuentro.
No, yo no me fui presentado ni tampoco me elegí
de repente encontré el ser que soy.
En el que sin querer me he convertido tras largos
años conviviendo conmigo.

¿Quien soy yo?. ¿Quién es ese que siento?, quisiera
saberlo pues con gusto o sin el  siempre viviendo
con mi ser estoy.
Donde quiera que vaya sin elegirme como amigo
allá estará el. ¿Quién es? ¿A quien siento? ¿Alguna
vez lo sabré?.

Soy yo mismo y no me conozco, ni tan siquiera se
si me plazco. ¿Disfruto de mi compañía o no me
aguanto?.
El ser que soy en constante cambio, confuso a veces
me desconcierta tanto que....cuando el equilibrio con
migo hallo, si , entonces al fin descanso.

el gatufo

WHERE IS MY LOVE?

Where is the sun,
where is the sky,
where is my love.
where she has gone.
Far away from home
you need to go
what can I do
when you be not.
Too much to feel
too much to think
not now but soon
she will be not home.
Without you I must go
extrange I will feel
inside these extrange walls
when you will be not.


Sooner or later Cuca will be not here at home with me, I try not to think too much about it, but ahead it is the real fact.
What will I do, not any idea but it is sure that the house will be not home any more.
Multiple Sclerosis is making it´s bad work inside her and after resisting me for a long time at last it has been necessary to ask for a nursing where she could receive a good care.
Doctor said me that once and again, so finally after talking with the social assistant and listening to her I gave my arm twisted and have done what they told me.
May be a year of waiting, six months, I don´t really know but little by little my mind is accepting the idea of letting her going out home.
In some way it is possible she could be better than here but not me that start to miss her before the fact happens.

emiliano

IN GOOD OR BAD MOOD

Wake up it is something difficult for me. 
Just the act of beginning a new day after being sleep for hours required from me a big effort to start the morning cheerful, with a smile in my face, even just saying something like good morning my dear, have you sleep well?.

If there is something irregular in my life the first thought I have in the morning it is just this problem.
A friend who is passing through difficulties, subjects with the family or in the office, when I was working, and so forth...always the first thought should be so.
I do think it happens to nearly every person but sure I am not so certain about this  premise, not all people have to feel the same, that´s for sure.
Good luck for them as getting up in bad mood it is always quite disagreeable for people around me.

Who knows how a baby sleep? or an adult? it is always  the form a baby dreams to the way of an old person?. Why some people are a good wake up and other a bad
humor just since there were born?

Being a children it was hard to wake up to go to the school very soon. I could remember that the hour of being in it was 8 a.m. every day and it cost me a lot.
Madrid it is a city very cold in Winter. Usually we have less two or three degrees at the morning to reach up fourteen or fifteen at noon which it is a big difference and the body suffers this changes in temperatura aching a lot.

Now I could see that children go to the school being so small, and they use to cry aloud every morning just because the don´t want to go.
I do think it is cruel what we do with the little babies  taking them so small to the nurseries every morning just because their parents have to work.

Being a baby, a boy and finally and adult I have felt always the same, my humor is bad as son as I open my eyes in the mornings.
I need at least half an hour to get my humor in a good way, to talk or to reply some questions or even to be concious about the reality of a new day, good , bad or or the simple daily routine of the moment is living.

Yes, I can imagine what could be the feelings of a person that his life have changed suddenly from a day to another. The dead of a husband or a wife, a son or daughter, a sudden sickness or accident that changes our way of living for ever.
Just the first subject we use to think as my eyes are open is all the reality of the moment, the lack of my mother, a bad situation in the office, the last argue with my wife or a friend, and so on.

However I know persons close to me that use to wake up brightness, happy, in good mood to talk since the first moment they awake. Giving thanks of being alive and facing reality with strength and courage undar any circunstance.
I admire these persons, my wife Cuca is one of them, and always I wanted to be like them, to have this will from the first moment of the day.
Gift of life and optimism of living just the moment without thinking anything about, feeling that being alive it is the best gift a human could have.

Now that I am depressed it is even worst, mornings are the hard hour of the day. I want to remain in bed, one two three hours, or more. It is the feeling of not wishing to live a new day.
I would like to be like people, like Cuca, that every morning think "Thanks to God" I am alive and I want to conquer the world, things are as they are and no one can change them once occurred.
We can do a better world with our mind, despite our weakness or missing our loved ones, knowing that life is a daily struggle and that it depends only of us, only from oneself doing happy every day of our life.
Just live in the moment without thinking about future and nothing more.

A big smile in the mornings, giving thanks to be alive and being in good humor to
say "good morning" my dear how are you?. Have you sleep well?....
That could be enough but use to be so difficult for some persons like me.

el gatufo

MIEDO E INCERTIDUMBRE

El miedo se mastica ya e irá a más.

Señores socialistas o de podemos, señor Sanchez, siga usted diciendo NO y al final en unas terceras elecciones la mayoria para gobernar caerá en las manos del señor Rajoy como fruta madura que cae del arbol.

Siempre el temor a favorecido a la derecha cuando no a la extrema derecha y ustedes llamados partidos de la izquierda so obstinan en no ver nada.

Me maravilla que se llamen políticos y tengan tan poca visión historica o política de lo que está ocurriendo en Europa y en el mundo entero.

Miedo, temor, cada vez mas y los partidos de derechas o los oportunistas de turno se aprovechan de ello.
Ya pasó en Alemania hace mas de setenta años y está pasando ahora, pasó en Italia, está pasando en Francia, en los paises del Norte de Europa, antes tan socialdomocratas y ahora tan escorados a la derecha, ha sucedido en el Reino Unido: Brexit y lo que nos queda por ver.

¿Acaso son ustedes ciegos?.

Sigan diciendo NO y el final en unas terceras elecciones aquí en España el PP. no necesitará de nadie para formar un Gobierno estable.

Es notorio que en la Edad Media o incluso antes cuando el pueblo sentía temor inmediatamente elevaba su mirada a Dios o se refugiaba en las enseñanzas de la Iglesia.
Ahora Dios no existe para una gran mayoria de gentes, la Iglesia ha perdido su poder de asustar, las dictaduras fomentan el temor entre su pueblo, y en las democracias tenemos los partido políticos.
Facil, ante el miedo a ser invadidos, los atentados, la incertidumbre las gentes giran hacia la derecha que son los representates de los antiguos poderes, Dios, la Iglesia, el Ejecito y resurgen movimientos incluso de extrema derecha por doquier.
Ya ocurre en Europa y es para echarse a temblar, no se que es peor el temor, la incertidumbre o el renacer de los extremismos de derechas. 

Dicho esto a mi ¿que me importa? puedo preguntarme, pues con los años que tenho no debiera inquietarme en absoluto, pero si me importa y en definitiva lo que deseo, como el resto de los que nos llamamos Españoles, es un Gobierno estable que mantengo los llamados principios tradicionales, la unidad de la Nación Española, y que reparta lo necesario para que no haya una explosión social.

Sinceramente creo que ni el señor Iglesias, ni el señor Sanchez, ni tan siquiera el señor Rivera son buenos jugadores de ajedrez e incluso dudo que les guste la historia por no decir la psicología.

El miedo guarda la viña, el miedo o la incertidumbre hace que "no gusten las aventuras políticas" y la gente en general se vuelve hacia la derecha.

Ayer paseando por mi Madrid, mi bella ciudad, entre en una tienda de recuerdos donde en teoria solo entran turistas.
Vi un pequeño mastil que sujetaba la Bandera Española, pregunté su precio y pensé que me lo llevaba.
La sorpresa fué cuando la vendedora me dijo que ahora multidud de madrileños, y españoles que antes nunca compraban la bandera, las están comprando. 
Vendo muchas me dijo, tantas como a los turistas, y esa circunstancia debiera hacer pensar a nuestros inútiles líderes políticos.

Si el psoe sigue en sus trece al final verá reducido su caudal de votos de forma escandalosa. 

Y no se enteran. 

Tiempo al tiempo, y si en Noviembre vuelve a ver elecciones atención a lo
que desde aquí anticipo, y no he consultado el Tarot.

Simple lógica, objetividad, e historia.

el gatufo